I can’t believe I just said that, I’ve never admitted I have felt that way to anyone other than my twin sister. Not even my
parents know that I went through that at school. It was horrible. But now I’ve moved on and met some lovely people at college! :)

…I’ve been through the exact same- people at school picking on you, meaning you have no-one except your twin sister to turn to, but then bullies pick on both of you for having no friends. It was horrible what we had to put up with. Everybody constantly threw things at us, poked us and made fun of us. This made me feel small and worthless, and I couldn’t even walk through school without thinking about what I looked like because I was scared what people would think of me and say to me.

But watching that programme has made me think about myself now. And much I have changed since starting college. I now don’t care what people think of me. I have hugely grown in confidence and now wish I could go back to school and tell all those people that they were wrong to do that to me. Their actions meant that I was terrified to say my opinion, I became shy and insignificant. They nearly ruined my life, but luckily I found a way out of it.

Have confidence in yourself.

Trying not to love you only goes so far love, trying not to need you is tearing me apart, i can see the silver-lining from down here on the floor, I just keep on trying but I don’t know why for, coz trying not to love you only makes me love you more.

Hello tumblr. Long time no see.

Every boy I see I consider dating, and then I think ‘wait no, he probably has a girlfriend’. This really isn’t healthy, I won’t ever get a boyfriend that way.

But, no matter how hard I try,I don’t see a way of finding one. I always seem to mess things up as soon as I get to know a boy. 

I probably just sound desperate. I don’t just want a boyfriend for the sake of it. I want one because I need somebody new in my life at the moment. Somebody who will make smile when I’m stressed, somebody to cuddle when I’m cold, someone who will like me for who I am- not for who I’m not.

Will this just forever be a dream?